This guy is obviously staying........ his shell is the only remains. Hunger from the sky will often shatter these little beautiful red gems of the sea OR the tide comes in and then out and they miss the last wave.
Just a top up for photographs! I am on the Big Island of Hawaii, ALOHA!
Pondering MY
existence
Standing tall AND standing still
No, I didn't crack that coconut by myself. I did however watch my friend whack that
machete in order for me to drink the soft, sweet and bubbly water inside... and then I took a sea shell and scooped out the rest. If that's not satisfying I don't know what is.
An image, like many, of contrast. It's lava and ALL growth.
These mangled, tangled
pieces of drift wood remind me of some recent inner dialog, shared below.
A sun that is engulfed by it's own captivation
I followed this guy around for what seemed like hours..... to capture his throat bubble out. A slow process, as if I myself was blowing a a hollow circle from my own throat.
I would like to start this written ramble with a couple of well known sayings, "What doesn't kill you will make you stronger" AND "The Universe only provides what you CAN handle, nothing more and nothing less."........ something I am learning OFTEN these days.
It's hard to start this blog. I haven't truly written in months and I hope you don't mistaken that as lacking deep and constant inner dialog, because I HAVE been experiencing quite a lot of that. The truth is it's so jumbled, it's hard to put this inner dialog into an actual written sentence, and even more difficult to construct it so that it doesn't run on into a next jumbled sentence wrapped further around yet another jumbled concept..... see there you have it, should I even go on? Currently I am on the Big Island or Hawaii. It is one of the most energetic places on the Earth and being an Earth sign in a water based surrounding (my house is on the beach) there is nothing but movement, and while the lava does stand still when cooled, and chaos all around me. A warning perhaps to read on?
Over the years I have observed that there are two types of people; people who run and people who stay. There are also two ways of viewing both the people who "run" and the people who "stay" The people who "run" could be viewed as heroic, always moving, never settling for anything less then what they envision they are capable of receiving, both from themselves or from the world. They bounce when the truth is stagnant and make like the current of a river and flow. They run, move and they become the movement. The people who "stay" could be viewed as cowards. They fear change and anything outside the comfort of their nest. They never move, never experience anything beyond what is placed, comfortably, in front of them, because they fear, for lack of another seemingly relevant power word, everything and anything that is the unknown. Ironic yes. EVERYTHING is unknown... oh no? When has anything gone exactly how you planned it?
Unfortunately for me, as I fall in the category of the people who "run", there are other ways of viewing these people. The runner, runs when things get tough......" when the going gets tough they get going" or something like that.... they run from the loss; when their expectation of their perfection created in their minds, is lost. They run from anything as soon as the challenge begins, as soon as the job sours, a relationships excitement wears off, an argument is had or the weather makes a turn for the worst. Or actually the "runner" never has a problem running from external things, they are usually found roaming the road, the mountains, or the rough sea's. Although they are the adventurous ones, they do however, run from the softness behind the walls they build around it.
Their weakness is an internal one not an external one. They run to something bigger and better and when the adrenalin from that "newness" is lost, the road is their only friend. Those who don't run, stay, and they stay within the struggle of a bitter boss, a tired relationship, an uncomfortable life, a sad state of being. BUT, they stay. They endure, AND if they stay long enough, they are able to witness but the storm of the struggle and with that comes the calm after the storm, if tap into the calm before the storm is over, their gift is in the rewards of inner peace among the outer chaos. The runners never witness this beautiful dance. They leave the storm before it starts, and while it may seem that they are in the clear, they are far from it. The storm follows them down their path until they too have no other choice but to face it.
There are times when you do run. You run when it's time to leave a life that doesn't serve you any longer, but when a morning jog turns into a sprint, which turns into a decade of long distance, it's time to stop. So, back to my first quote " What doesn't kill you will make you stronger" you better believe it will. There are MANY times this past year when I have wanted to bail out. For instance, the time I was peeing down the side of a sacred mountain high in the Himalayan Mountains and I was sick from lack of sleep, sick of the raw and black smoke nestled deep into every crevasse of my clothes and skin from every kitchen in every village we roamed through, sick of my legs hurting, my head pounding, and the emotional tidal waves that came up every time I saw something that broke through the walls to my heart..... and then out of the corner of my eye I saw a large and green army helicopter and thought, "now is my chance, run for it, leave everything, get on that and get out of here!!!!!" Needless to say, I continued in my calm squat while I observed my inner dialogue conflict. I stayed. I stayed through the next few weeks of the same torture, the inner torture and the physical torture. I emerged as sick as and as happy as I have ever been in my entire life. The struggle was worth it. The storm was worth all the calm.
Then there is the second quote I would like to refer too.. " The Universe will never provide what you can't handle, it will however provide what you can, nothing more and nothing less." It will provide exactly what you need, at any given time, in order to encourage GROWTH. Whatever it is that you are experiencing is for a reason. I know not just one reason, but MANY reasons. The lessons that come from the endless amounts of experiences, both trying and pleasant, are bit's and pieces from life's golden treasure chest. Choose to embrace whatever deep and aching emotions or trying experiences come up for you. Challenge the challenges that lie presently and that lie ahead. Understand that your current experience is exactly what you need to grow into a more enlightened human being. If not enlightened, then wiser, and if not wiser then more compassionate and if not more compassionate than, if anything, more accepting. The challenge is not to run or to stay, the challenge is to find calm IN the storm, not AFTER the storm, and when you have found the calm in the middle of the storm, then any experience you have will be nothing but peace.
these beautiful, wise, pre historic beings of the most incredible animal species I have ever seen, slowly inch themselves up to shore line to take a rest. most tourists get in their way, take photographs and ooh and ah, myself being one of them until i was told, "they are trying to sleep" the are so still they almost look as if there is no life left in them. graceful and kind, they find small nooks on secluded beaches far away from the mountains of modern life.
The "Kings Trail" an incredible, on going trail of about 28 miles or so, stretches over a fast amount of hardened lava rock. With each step your legs get black with dust and the crunch of clay meets furnace sounds reminds me of just enormous kiln. 
the little man i "saved" from the indoors. my connection is slow, and the connection between the waves in my brain are even slower, what can i say, i am on island time.
